I believe I am ready to give Drawing another chance.
A lot sooner than I had anticipated, I feel it is time. 

With so much positive feedback I've been getting
from so many different people on DeviantArt in the
short 4-5 weeks time, now a month, I feel it's time to
pick up a pencil and start giving it another chance.

I might start off a bit rusty, but I know I still got it.

I just need to put in the work again, keep my self esteem raised higher, I don't want to end up feeling down on myself like I was EVER again, letting all these negative thoughts, and any other types of negativity thrown at me, keep keeping me down, and make it extremely hard for me to maximize my full potential to it's absolute fullest. The effort has always been there. Whether Good or Bad.

It's been draining all my mental energy out of me.
And I haven't enjoyed drawing on a daily consistent
basis ever since April of 2009. That was 8 years ago.

I still did a couple, but they were just rarely.

My esteem wasn't high enough for me to draw,
and I felt so emotionally drained, and frustrated,
because I was so insecure, felt  uncomfortable,
and fear any negativity, whether it was intentional,
or not. Or someone critiquing my Artwork, but maybe
was giving me advice in the best way they possible
can. Whatever the reason, I took it very personal.

I developed a defensive mechanism throughout,
and made sure to deflect all negative remarks away
from me, kind of like using a protective shield in battle.

I use most of those years, doing Photoshop
on my PC. Whether CS, CS5, CS6, Elements 4.0,
or Elements 6.0.  I devoted my time to creating
Graphic Artwork as best as I honestly can, and
enjoying it for what it is.  As well having fun doing it.   

Something I still do, and don't have any problems.
I'm learning and soaking in as much knowledge as
I possible can, to keep getting better and better, with
developing different techinques.  A lot has changed.

I believe in my heart, it changed me for the better,
not just as an Artist, but also as a person importantly.

I feel it helped me grow as a person too.

I learn to accept my mistakes, keep on learn from them, keep on trying over again & again, until I get it get it right. I won't really know again until I at least TRY.

Doing whatever it "TAKES" to succeed in the end.  

That's my dedication, my commitment, passion,
my desire, my drive to be the very best I know I
can be in my special own way, without any limits.

I'm not one for finger pointing, or making excuses.
But I believe I'll come back stronger than I EVER was.